July 11, 2022
Colt
Just dropping in to say there are some things that make me miss spending all my days with horses.
This lil' dude had the biggest personality and I really love him. That's all I have to say haha! He is crazy adorable and spunky.
Lil' update on my life: I've still been showing up. I went to a concert last night by myself, for myself and danced all on my own. Who cares what spectators think? I figured I could be a spectator among the seven hundred, or be a dancer among the twenty. So I showed up for the fun and danced and had the time of my life, zero regrets. The afterglow was a smile that lasted me for hours.
I visited a city I've never been to and did things I've never done. I left bigger tips than my penny-pinching self ever has. I took a road I'd never been on, rolled down the windows and discovered new music. I sat in another county's library and read for a while. I found a new coffee shop, and with my phone almost dead, literally just sat with my coffee and looked around. (I must look strange to other humans I encounter in this life haha. Who does that? Who is so content to just BE, alone?) I sat on a dock and watched the river flow for ages.
I shared my faith, I visited loved ones who are dear to me, I made an anklet like when I was seventeen, I spontaneously had friends go to the river with me.
I also went to a funeral. Did some hard things. Shed a few tears. Stayed up too late, crashed pretty hard, overthought some decisions. Life is both.
Here's something for ya: God loves you.
Simply that.
I've been learning we don't have to be perfect.
God's not waiting for us to be perfect to love us.
He's not.
He knew you from before time began. He died for you while you were still dead in your sin, still His enemy in your heart and actions. He loves you that much. Have you heard it so much you've become numb to it? He thinks about you countlessly - beautiful thoughts. Thoughts of goodness and mercy and creation and love. He really just wants you to know Him. He loves you. He loves you.
We don't have to be cool or pulled together, or as this blog may have you believe, have a great time. I do have a great time. I really do. I take pictures of baby horses, work with my friends and run around doing cool single-girl things. But that doesn't give this life much meaning. It adds value, because I have a foundation to add it to...
But it's not perfect. And it's still beautiful.
God wants me. My personality. My looks. My likes and interests. My thoughts. My love. My adoration and my attention.
He gave me that personality and likes what He did. I am to use it in a way that honors Him. He made me exactly as I am and calls it beautiful. He designed my interests, values every aspect of His creation, His daughter, His heart. If you've forgotten that God designed you and LOVES you, be reminded.
He calls us to a relationship with Himself, and that changes everything. I was asked by a non-believing friend today if we can't be perfect enough for God in our efforts, what's the point of Christianity? Also, if we can just confess, what keeps us from sinning rampantly however we want? -- First, who is good but God? Really, who is good? I'm certainly not, and I try my darndest. I've found it can only be by His mercy. Jesus dying on the cross freed God to love us unconditionally. He paid the price; when we believe in Him and turn our hearts to Him we are adopted in as children of God. Which leads to the change, question two: God knows us. He's no fool haha, He knows us, He knows what we're thinking, our hearts! He desires real relationship with us. Are you for real? In that relationship, stemming from it, comes wholeness. Walking with God, honoring Him, desiring what He does. He changes what we see and how we think - He changes everything. Spend time getting to know Him. Read the Bible. I've done life with Him and without Him: life with Him is much easier and much harder in some ways, but it is so much BETTER. Drastically different. There's a way that seems right to a man but leads to death; God gives us a better way of life, that leads to LIFE. Life eternal. And that only comes through relationship with Jesus Christ.
So live.
Live for Jesus. Live WITH Jesus.
That's all.
Thanks for listening.
Here's baby horse now, I can't spell his name or I'd tell you.
Love, Sarah
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